I just want to share a random thought. HAHAHA I downloaded this app wherein you can look at different designs of houses and rooms. When I was a kid, I used to buy old interior design magazines, and I would point out some details or pictures in the magazines that I want for my future home. I want my home to look like these pictures. I’m gonna ask my future architect or interior designer to use my top 3 favorite colors for the furnitures (Red, White and Black). I also want big windows so that it’ll be very bright during the morning.
I have so many plans for my family and my own future. I know what I have to do and what I need to do in order to push through all my plans. It scares me that I might not be able to do everything in time.
Clash of the TitansOver dramatic title, don’t you think? HAHA Well I do. I used that title or those words because for the past few days I have been thinking about what to do during 4 weeks summer vacation. For the first week, I was a bum. HAHA. I did the same things for almost a week, it was a comfortable cycle but it was meaningless.
My day would usually go like this: I wake up at around 3 in the afternoon, and then I eat my brunch + snacks. After eating, I turn on our television and my laptop. If I don’t like the television show, I go upstairs to my room and watch movies or series in my laptop. I only go down to our kitchen to eat dinner at around 8pm; I go straight to my room after eating and I continue watching movies or series. If I get tired of watching stuff on my laptop, I turn it off and go to sleep; and then the cycle begins again.
At first it was awesome. I was happy because there was no pressure for the time being. However, after a few days I began to realize that I wasn’t using my time wisely. Yeah, I sound like goody-two-shoes or something like that but it was true. HAHAHA
After a few moments of contemplating about my realization, I saw an opportunity to do something meaningful. It was right in front of me but I didn’t seize it immediately. I realized that I only had 3 or 2 weeks to rest because after those days or weeks, all I’m going to do is to work on academics and extra curricular activities. I hesitated so I continued being a bum for a day or two. There was no pressure or stress but I wasn’t happy.
There was a clash between my want (to not be burdened by stress or pressure) and my need (to be able to do something meaningful or useful)
Today I’ve decided to seize that opportunity, I feel tired from all the thinking and commuting I did but I don’t regret it. It makes me happy. My need overpowered or overshadowed my want. I feel the pressure and I feel the stress but it’s okay for me. I can’t really explain it in a more elaborate way but I can sum it up in four words: “It. Makes. Me. Happy.” And I believe that that’s all that matters.
Model and Processing: Jielene Libunao
Photography: Nancy Salvador
Model and Processing: Jielene Libunao
Photography: Nettie Solon
Model: Sheena Labrador
Photography and Processing: Jielene Libunao
And we will never look back, look back at the faded silhouette. -Silhouette by Avicii
All I have are good memories. Sometimes it’s enough, sometimes it’s not.
There’s never a dull moment when I’m with these crazies. I love them to bits.
They finally got my name right.
